2026-05-08

迷霧與燈塔

迷霧,總是毫無預警地降臨。


它化成美夢的餘溫、未竟的渴望、深埋的不甘、悄然的失落、脆弱的顫抖、困惑的糾纏、誤解的刺痛,甚至是一絲壓抑的憤怒。


某個時刻,人不自覺地航向那片迷霧,方向模糊,感受混沌,理不清心裡翻湧的種種情緒。


日子久了,便將一部分的自己留在霧中,換取一種逃避後、看似輕盈的自由。


而每團升起的迷霧裡,周遭總有座燈塔。


它靜靜矗立,會出現在另一個人的迷霧邊界。


燈塔想要努力燃燒,不分日夜,以微弱卻固執的光,奢望能穿透濃霧,被看見、被了解然後心能回歸到原點。


燈塔亦在迷霧中,也有恐懼不安,害怕疑惑的時候,但它想起當初的諾言,決定堅守在原位,把所有的信念與愛,化作光,投向迷失的方向。


從迷霧之中望出去,燈塔是什麼模樣呢?是螢火般微弱的希望,還是另一個可能令人失望的幻影?


燈塔無從得知也不再去多做思考,開始默默等待,持續發光。


它相信,總有那麼一天,有人會駕著疲憊的小舟,停靠在港邊,走向那道光,走向溫暖,最終,走出迷霧。

2026-05-07

學人精



“學人精”這詞經常出現在早期的對話中,開始出現幾次,只覺得有趣,後來次數多了,竟生出一種『連這個也像』的驚奇與莞爾。


猜劇情是學人精、不斷推敲自己或別人寫過的文字也是,連繽紛樂二十年前也就是了。


說著類似的話,被妳輕敲著頭並對我說著:『我聰明,你傻瓜』


有多久沒有聽到妳說了呢? 


嘿,最近我又一直當學人精囉~


因為這些都是我學到的生活中的美好,一開始的學人精,是想跟妳相似,現在的學人精,是想變更好。


自然而然地就感受身旁早已準備好的事物,去了解它,然後真正感受到它的美好,有時候,好想知道妳當時的想法。


當然,一開始很大一部分是因為鍾意妳才去學的,但更多的是,我心裡是深深臣服並認同妳,我知道,往這方向,,會讓我變成更好的人。


『不在妳左右,卻被妳左右』



Out of Reach

 You're like a dream just out of my reach.

So far away, yet standing right there.

What hurts is I can't read your mind without communication.

Time and space created an invisible boundary.

All I can do is keeping sending messages, even though they have to cross countless light-years to reach you.

For now, you're still out of reach.

Your heart hidden in a mysterious space.

I wish I was Dr. Stange, drawing a circle in the air to touch your heart.

There's so many things I want to do,

           so many words I try to tell,

           sp many love I want to give, make and receive

                                            with you, to you, from you.

I hope time will heal and pull us closer.

NO MORE "out of reach"

找尋最初的感動

 心血來潮地想找尋最初的感動,才發現妳始終沒變,想的,要的,都一樣。

而吸引我的,讓我著迷的,渴望的,也不曾改變。

最初的感動是來自文字。

文字背後的靈魂,是我們一直追求的。

它能表達心意、思念與所有的情緒---

無論好壞,我都願意全然接受,深深理解。

一開始的親密相處後,短暫的分隔兩地,那時唯有文字能反覆閱讀,細細品嚐。

就像隔了二十年,當初那些字句,依然能讓我心神響往。

所以...再開始吧。

我想要,重新開始寫文字予妳。

2008-08-20

I Don't!

Do I really want to tell you all the shits I been through to ruin our night?


Do I really want to spend my extra time to sacrifice our time during the night?

Do I really want to deal with those unnecessary pressure and turn to have fight with you?

I don't!

But I thought you all understand.

I know, even though you understand but you could not help to lose your temper.

If that's what I always need to face, I will learn to do anything to face it no matter I like it or not. 

For tonight, I just wish I am a millionaire now and I DON'T need to do something I don't want and just stay home being with you all the time.

2008-08-06

Finally Moving in





到美國也一段時間了 一直以為 找房子搬家是件兩三個星期能搞定的事情

直到前兩個禮拜 一切才塵埃落定
中間雖然經歷了辦事不利的中國agent 及愛騙人的阿米哥管理員
不過終究找到了一個溫暖的小窩
在傢具店上班的我 一開始就是以BoConcept傢具為主 迫不及待的設計了整個家
不過 最後基於價錢及等待時間 竟然將所有東西用ikea代替.........sigh!!

來看看原來的設計圖吧

2008-06-10

So frustrated

I think the God likes to give me lots tasks before everything goes smoothly.


For house hunting, I don't know what's going on. Everytime I thought I got the deals and planned to do furniture shopping, I even draw the layout in my interior design program, the next day, broker called me it had already been token or landlord regretted.

Today, I almost fall into a catch. A amio superintendent showed me a very nice two bedroom only for $1,450 but he would charge commission for $900 which I felt fine with it. However, the situation went wired that he asked me to filled out the application form and gave him deposit for $500. I felt really really odd. He kept saying I got the deals and I could have key the next day; however, when I asked for the owner of building or the manage company of the building, he couldn't answer me. To be honest, I almost gave him the money and hope for the best.

After clear consideration, I thought it's a fraud. The application doesn't have any company name printed on it. The normal process is the applier filled out application, the owner or manage team run the credit report and review all the document such as employment letter, pay tub, W2 and bank statement.

This guy asked me to do nothing but gave him money to reserve the apartment.


Now I finally realize why there're hundreds people cheated by bad guys because they're desperated for something.